Tawagin 'nyo na 'kong late bloomer pero sa totoo lang kasi, ngayon 'ko lang napag-isipan at naramdamang lubusan na hindi na ako nag-aaral. Isa na akong ganap na walang trabahong Pilipinong umaasa pa rin sa magulang para mabuhay. Bukod doon, ngayon ko lang naramdamang malungkot pala dahil hindi na kami muling magkikita-kita ng mga taong madalas ko lamang makasalubong sa aking pang-araw-araw na buhay noon. Dati kasi matapos ang graduation, naisip kong haay may board review pa at exam makikita ko pa 'tong mga 'to at magsasawa pa rin akong mag-aral (at mag-PSP sa klase). Pero ngayon kapag natapos na ang oathtaking, maaaring 'yun na ang huling pagkikita namin ng ilan sa aking mga kamag-aral na naging kaibigan ko na rin. Note: nagiging madrama si mabahongbata 'pag sumasapit ang alas dos ng madaling araw.
Dahil siguro sumapit na naman ang oras ng aking kadramahan sa buhay kaya bigla ko itong naisip. Sa dami kasi ng bagay na inaalala bago sa wakas ay nakapagbakasyon na tayo, ngayon ko lang naiisip ang mga bagay na ito. Nakakamiss din pala ang mga nakakainis na araw ng pagdadraft sa pangit na IDS kasama ang magugulo mong kamag-aral na iba't iba ang trip sa buhay. Sa mga panahong ayaw mong magpahiram ng markers dahil sobrang mahal ang mga ito at nang-away ka pa ng iba dahil sa groupwork. Wala, tapos na ang mga iyon, hindi na pwedeng balikan (as if gusto naman nating balikan pero wala lang nakakamiss). Mas marami kasi siguro tayong panahong inilalagi sa paaralan kaysa sa kahit ano pang ibang lugar kaya may ganitong attachment.
Pero ok lang. Sawa na rin naman akong mag-aral. At paglipas ng panahon, sawa na rin akong magtrabaho.
Woohoo! Translation for Mika:
Call me a late bloomer but really, it is only now that I realize that I’m not in school anymore. I am now a full-fledged bum still depending on her parents to live. Also, it is only today that I honestly felt sad that I’m not studying anymore, and I won’t be able to see the people I'm used to being with everyday. After our graduation, I thought to myself I’m still going to meet them during reviews and the boards anyway. I’ll still be cursing study sessions during the review so why bother thinking about missing the studying I was doing before the graduation? It is unfortunate but now that we are about to take our oaths as professionals, I was seriously thinking that it would be the last time that I will be able to be with some of my classmates whom I think I already became friends with. Note: mabahongbata usually becomes highly emotional at 2AM.
My dramatic speech may be due to these rare moments of my emotional mood swings. Anyway, I just came to realize these things since there were a lot of stuff that happened before and this was the only time we were actually able to rest. I never thought I would seriously miss drafting in that disgusting IDS building with all my “well-behaved” classmates (isn’t it SO ironic?). Also, who would even think I’d miss those times I hated lending my super-expensive markers and those times of war over group works? Well, everything’s over now and there’s no such thing as rewind in this life of ours (as if we would want that…). I just find it nice to remember those “happy times” (yeah right!). This (or only “My”) emotional attachment to school may possibly be due to spending more of our time in school than anywhere else.
But its ok, I’m tired of studying anyway. Time will just quickly slip away and for all I know I’m already fed up working.
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